I have long had a habit of taking things that are unpleasant and finding ways to reclaim them in a positive light.
High school was no picnic for me. But tonight, as my company celebrates all things “high school and homecoming” I take it back as my own. Now, nearly 20 years later, I am married to the love of my life and will be so proud and excited to walk into “the dance” with my husband. Tonight I will be Lorraine Baines, Diane Court, and Eliza Doolittle all rolled into one. All my high school dreams and fantasies come true but it’s going to be better, because it’s not accompanied by all that angst about if the guy I like really likes me. I already know!
What negative can YOU turn into a positive? Think about it!
This Saturday I am walking in a 5K. I will pause for your reaction.
This former fat kid, who was told many times, “you have such a pretty face, you just need to get rid of the baby fat” is walking in a 5K. I never thought that was possible. I use the phrase “shattering expectations” very purposefully. I have a picture of myself as fat which started in middle school and pervades daily. My only choice is to shatter that image with everything that I do that defies that image.
So when I look in the mirror I do not see the slimming figure I am becoming. I see the overweight teenager who was mercilessly teased. In other words, someone who would NEVER walk a 5K let alone run in one. (my next goal)
Funny thing about memories, they aren’t always accurate. In this case, they aren’t even close. I was recently going through some pictures of me in sixth grade (see below) and I am not fat, was not fat and this was my figure going through high school but somewhere along the way someone told me I was fat and I believed it over and over and over again and it is only now in looking back and considering the things I told myself and the relationship I have with food that I realize I am a healthy weight for my size and losing the weight is within my grasp and I have already lost 45 pounds of the weight I have carried along with a lot of negative thoughts about myself.
What do you say about yourself that when looked at through anothers eyes simply isn’t true?