Dear Readers, I try my best to be positive but there are times when even this Pollyanna gets down.
Today is one of those times. I won’t share much except to say that we all have things in our lives that no amount of positive things that you say, do, or think about it will ever change what it actually is. Reframing is the only option. Harder than it looks to be sure, and I am struggling with that right now.
Sometimes facing that reality and giving up the fantasy of what you wish were true is the hardest part. Having an active imagination makes that job 10 times harder.
Try as I might, things will not resolve to my satisfaction so I have to put on a happy face and focus on what I can control and change how I look at it and see it for what it really is.
I promised to be authentic with you when you followed me, so for today, this is the way it is.
So my motivational photo shoot has come and gone. Sad face. It’s hard to come back to reality after such a fantastic departure from it.
So to be accountable and honest I will tell you, I haven’t weighed myself in a week to try to motivate myself. Yesterday I stepped on the scale to see where I am and I am back up to 247 which is disheartening, especially because I worked out first and yes I know you gain weight when you gain muscle but its still tough.. when I was at 241 just two weeks ago.. but that is okay, I will persevere because I realized something. The goal is better health and weight loss. Both goals are important, and the balancing of them is just as important as whatever number flashes on that scale.
I think its easy to forget that a year ago, I wasn’t working out at all but recovering from appendix surgery ( I could barely walk ) and was in an incredible amount of pain. So a year later, not only am I consistently working out (every other day) and eating healthy, I am continuing to find ways to enhance our life including but not limited to not feeling guilty when we do eat ice cream and other assorted yummy goodness. I am giving up the guilt and I have my husband to thank for it. 80% of the time we eat healthy and abide by paleo.
The other 20% are just going to exist and I am excising the guilt. Thank you Jeremy, I appreciate the balance you bring to our lives daily but especially in this matter.
What could you stand to let go? Think about it!